Ano Toki - Shuukou No Jikan

Dedicated to
My first friend
Of my new life

Entitled
Ano Toki-Shuukou No Jikan
That time-It is Friendship’s

..
That time, everyone leave
That time, i leave myself
That time, no one care me

But i keep going
Can’t think anything
Till i collapsing

Where am i?
Who am i?
What am i doing here?
Don’t know, and don’t care

I keep going
Without thinking
Until.. you coming
And asking

I find myself again
Without much pain
I can’t believe it
You can do it

Are you goddess?
Or an angel?

I’ve come to think ‘bout it
Are they even exist?

That time,
I hear your speaking
That time,
I realized a thing

Don’t care if you god or what
I found a more suitable word
Fried, with a “n” inside it
Before the letter “d”

That time,
Yes that time
If i can give it a name
I’ll call it
Time of friendship.

Innocent Sorrow

“we don’t know for what purpose we live
But as long as we still alive, we will try to find it

We don’t know if all we did
Are true or not, we don’t care
We just want everyone to know
That we are exist, here

Even though we hurt someone,
We didn’t mean to do that
We are still human , afterall

Through so many hell,
It has been proven that all we did were wrong
If that’s truth, then we beg you, please forgive us

But if that’s the case, if we can’t do all we can do,
How can we express ourself?
We just want to proof that we were here, afterall”

Rain

Rain falls, so does my doubts
Wipes away all my tear
That i can’t bear

O, the heavy rain
Please erase my pain
So that i could gain
Something without vain

-Doubt-

Is there a thing that can be reach by this hand?
Is there a good result that can be achieved by my deed?

I wonder..
Since when did i lose myself?
Why i have to suffer like this?
Who am i? Where am i?
What am i supposed to be?

I wonder..
Since when did i wonder?

Me Who Don’t Know Myself

I asked my reflection
“who are you?”
He did the same
“are you mine?”
He didn’t answer
He seem so unfamiliar
I rarely see him
“you’re weird”
“gimme a break”
I murmured
“is this me?”
“i don’t want you”
But he is me, i can’t afford it
That’s a truth

..
...
“he is ya”
A nice word from a nice girl
A wise, cheerful, cute girl
She have taught me a lot
“appreciate him”
“he isn’t created to be dumped”
“how will yer beloved one recognize ya, if ya even don’t recognize yerself?”
“...”
That girl..
She always be there to cheer me

I don’t know what i’m going to be
If she doesn’t exist..

This is my conclusion
Not a fiction
But more to a realization
Maybe i’ll try to meet him more
For myself, who own him
Her, who encourage me, and Him, who own me.

I’ll try.

Sorrow Symphony

“dark”
“can’t see anything but dark”
“doesn’t matter what i do, eventually i can’t do anything”
“everyone blame at me, but i won’t blame anyone”
“since there’s no one i can blame on”
“why, for what purpose did i exist?”
“since what i do is a shame”
“..don’t know what to do”
“i don’t care anymore”
“whatever will be, will be”
“i don’t have anything to be done anyway”
“..dark, sorrow, vague”
“is that all i’ve got all this time?”
“is it just that?”
“...”

Ai No Jikan

Dedicated to

My maybe-never-be-mine

The one and only Mellisa Karunia

Remembrance of

My first true love

-it’s amor, not eros-

Entitled

Ai No Jikan

:Moment of Love:

-Two thousand and five –

An unforgotten time

When i first saw you

I felt warmth in my soul

Losing words

I just sad and sat behind you

Not able to talk

Nor able to walk

I just can do anything

To you and to myself

-Two thousand and six-

So bad of me

I didn’t make it to the next...

But..

So luck of me

I meet you

Still feel the same

Like the first time i see you

Day by day

Cross over time

More i see you

Can’t wipe you off my mind

-Two thousand and seven-

So luck of me

Finally, i can make it to the next..

But..

This is a quite bad luck

I don’t be with you

Something has dig up

From my foot

Through my core

To my throat

There’s a hole in me

Without you

Even worse..

If i meet you

I can’t move

Can’t speak

I just can see you again,

Without doing anything

I’m starting to hate this useless self of me

So naive

Too nervous

Yes, i’m a coward

Can’t tell you

That i love you

Maybe later, or other time

With a letter, or other kind

But..

I just don’t get it

Why must you?

Can you tell me?

Someday

Or some other day

Will you understand

My feeling toward you?

May i

Enter your

Life with

Love that

I have

Someday

At some place?

Knowing you

A gift

Running

Useless life of me

Neverending

In

Atmosphere

In This Empty World

Climbing to Heaven, Falling to hell

My longing to live, it hasn't fell

Though no one cares bout it

They don't pity me, they don't think of me

Alone

In this empty world of mine

It sick me off, yet it's better

No one disturb,

No problem, no task

Just do nothing

Everything will eventually disappear

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust

As if nothing happened

I won't blame anyone

There's no one to be blamed anyway

I'll just keep wandering

Clinging

In this empty world of mine.

Season's Symphony

Rain's falling down, wind's going blown

Wiping those tears off

Ran recklessly , go toward a light

I arrived and find nothing

Where did summer go? Can you answer me?

Even the flowers can't

Wondering, how this rain will last

I'll wait, forever

Fall's coming and leaves are falling

So does my feeling

The wind blows heavily, so breezy

And now I feel dizzy

My summer's cold, my winter's hot

Am I like an idiot?

Can you tell me my feeling?

Maybe not, even the flowers can't

I don't know what to do now

I'm even not a flower, so I won't know

Maybe i'll wait, forever

Until my spring come

Hey, let's make a promise

Someday, or some other day

We'll meet again, for sure

With same season, same place

With our own symphony.